Well, today I went for my first trimester screening where they check for any genetic defects in the baby like Down Syndrome, etc. Unfortunately, at 13 weeks, we no longer have a heartbeat. The doctor talked to me after the ultrasound and explained that he thinks I have what they call a "partial molar pregnancy". Basically, there was an genetic issue with the fertilization process and if the baby would have survived pregnancy, there would have been severe defects. So, sometimes these things happen and while it may not make sense as to "why us", it's just part of the plan.
It sucks. I was by myself at the appointment and that was hard. Christian was home with Max so he wasn't with me. I knew something was going on when I didn't hear a heartbeat while she was doing the ultrasound and the baby didn't move at all. I even asked the tech if there was a heartbeat when she was walking out of the room and she said "I'll have to look at all of the pictures". Well, I'm no dummy and I know you can tell if there's a heartbeat while you're on the machine. But, I know she's just the tech and probably can't tell me that kind of thing. So, she came back and said the doc wanted to talk to me. So, I spoke with him and he showed me all of the pictures and explained the molar pregnancy and that even if the baby had a heartbeat, the pregnancy would need to be terminated. So, in a way, I'm thankful that, since there is no heartbeat, I don't have to make the decision to terminate my pregnancy. That's a relief.
So, now I'm waiting to hear from my doctor to see what the next steps are. Since I'm so far along, I'll have to have a D&C to clean out my uterus. The little research that Christian and I have done says that you shouldn't get pregnant for another 6-12 months so that's a pretty big bummer. I guess we won't definitely know if this is actually a molar pregnancy until the docs test my placenta after the D&C. But, it's all we have right now.
I hate that we JUST told everyone and now we have to give the bad news. I hate that I had just really started to get excited about this and not really scared. I hate that the two-year age gap that we always wanted is no longer going to happen. But, everything happens for a reason, right? Christian and I are ok. We still have a zillion questions for my doctors and really just wonder "why?". I can't imagine having a baby with severe defects so in that sense, I know this was all part of God's plan. We'll be fine and Max will make an awesome big brother when the right time comes. For now, I'm just going to love on my little man like crazy and be thankful that I have his happy, healthy face to come home to.
Anyway, I just wanted to do a blanket memo because, frankly, I don't want to get to that awkward conversation where someone asks me how the pregnancy is going and I have to say that I've had a miscarriage. No fun, right.
So, y'all have a good day. I'll fill you in more once we hear back from the doctors.
xoxo,
Chrissi
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Big news!
Hey y'all!
I hope everyone is doing well! We're finally in our house and actually settled in pretty well. We are loving our house and neighborhood and neighbors. Everything is great! The only thing that's hard to get used to is the fact that we're at least 20-30 minutes from anything (besides the commissary on base). So, that's not super fun but hey, it saves money, right? No more daily random trips to Target for nothing in particular and leaving with over $50 worth of stuff. haha But, all-in-all, we're loving it and so is Max. There are tons of kids in the neighborhood who are always outside so that's awesome.
The weather has been so nice up here the past few days. On Thursday, the high was about 68 and it was amazing!!! It was about 82-85 yesterday and today so it's been great. Windows open in the morning and evening just make life so enjoyable! :)
Christian has been home for a while now and doesn't have any trips planned until he leaves for det on August 12th. So, that's been great. It will be a little adjustment when he leaves since, like I said, we're so far from everything. But, we'll make it work and go to the playground a lot! I'm hoping to get a bike with a seat for Max before Christian leaves so we can go for long bike rides to kill time and get outside.
I'm going to NYC next Saturday with two of my girlfriends for one of their birthdays! We're staying the night so this will be the first time I've ever been away from Max overnight and I'm having a little (actually a lot) anxiety about it. I know he'll be 100 percent fine with Christian but I'm going to miss him SOOOOO much! :( But, NYC will be fun.
Well, anyway, let me get to the point of my post! :) I think everyone who actually gets this blog emailed to them already knows but I figured I'd make it "internet official". :) Soooooo.... Christian and I are expecting baby number two! Due date is Feb. 6th and we're super excited! The kids will be almost exactly two years apart and that's what we've always wanted so it's great. To tell you the truth, I'm also pretty terrified. I know how hard the first few months of a baby's life are and I can only imagine how much more complex it will be to add a toddler into that newborn crazy mix. But, we'll make it. haha I'm so excited to see Max as a big brother. I already ask him "where's momma's baby?" and he'll point to my belly. :) He's so smart and so funny. I can't imagine loving anything/anyone more than that little boy but I hear your heart just grows to fit that extra love in. That's pretty amazing. When I first found out I was pregnant, even though we were trying for number 2, I cried a lot about Max no longer being my only baby and how he was going to handle it, etc, etc. I still worry that I won't get much alone time with my little man once baby comes but I'm sure it will all even out. If anyone has any support or encouragement in that respect, I'd love to hear it!
I've chosen a new OB up here and decided to deliver at a different hospital from where Max was born. I'm delivering at a hospital that has the Baby Friendly designation from the World Health Organization and UNICEF. It's basically more focused on natural mother/baby bonding and extremely breastfeeding friendly. So, I'm excited to see how different the experience will be. I've heard it's night and day difference so it will be interesting! A friend of mine who lives around here is due with her second soon and she has also chosen to deliver at a Baby Friendly hospital so I'll hear all about her experience soon! :)
So, that's our news! It's been a crazy few months for us, to say the least! But, what else would anyone expect from the Jenkins family, right?! haha But, we're extremely happy to be settled in a great house with plenty of room (and central AC!). :)
Anyway, y'all have a great week coming up! Talk soon,
Chrissi :)
I hope everyone is doing well! We're finally in our house and actually settled in pretty well. We are loving our house and neighborhood and neighbors. Everything is great! The only thing that's hard to get used to is the fact that we're at least 20-30 minutes from anything (besides the commissary on base). So, that's not super fun but hey, it saves money, right? No more daily random trips to Target for nothing in particular and leaving with over $50 worth of stuff. haha But, all-in-all, we're loving it and so is Max. There are tons of kids in the neighborhood who are always outside so that's awesome.
The weather has been so nice up here the past few days. On Thursday, the high was about 68 and it was amazing!!! It was about 82-85 yesterday and today so it's been great. Windows open in the morning and evening just make life so enjoyable! :)
Christian has been home for a while now and doesn't have any trips planned until he leaves for det on August 12th. So, that's been great. It will be a little adjustment when he leaves since, like I said, we're so far from everything. But, we'll make it work and go to the playground a lot! I'm hoping to get a bike with a seat for Max before Christian leaves so we can go for long bike rides to kill time and get outside.
I'm going to NYC next Saturday with two of my girlfriends for one of their birthdays! We're staying the night so this will be the first time I've ever been away from Max overnight and I'm having a little (actually a lot) anxiety about it. I know he'll be 100 percent fine with Christian but I'm going to miss him SOOOOO much! :( But, NYC will be fun.
Well, anyway, let me get to the point of my post! :) I think everyone who actually gets this blog emailed to them already knows but I figured I'd make it "internet official". :) Soooooo.... Christian and I are expecting baby number two! Due date is Feb. 6th and we're super excited! The kids will be almost exactly two years apart and that's what we've always wanted so it's great. To tell you the truth, I'm also pretty terrified. I know how hard the first few months of a baby's life are and I can only imagine how much more complex it will be to add a toddler into that newborn crazy mix. But, we'll make it. haha I'm so excited to see Max as a big brother. I already ask him "where's momma's baby?" and he'll point to my belly. :) He's so smart and so funny. I can't imagine loving anything/anyone more than that little boy but I hear your heart just grows to fit that extra love in. That's pretty amazing. When I first found out I was pregnant, even though we were trying for number 2, I cried a lot about Max no longer being my only baby and how he was going to handle it, etc, etc. I still worry that I won't get much alone time with my little man once baby comes but I'm sure it will all even out. If anyone has any support or encouragement in that respect, I'd love to hear it!
I've chosen a new OB up here and decided to deliver at a different hospital from where Max was born. I'm delivering at a hospital that has the Baby Friendly designation from the World Health Organization and UNICEF. It's basically more focused on natural mother/baby bonding and extremely breastfeeding friendly. So, I'm excited to see how different the experience will be. I've heard it's night and day difference so it will be interesting! A friend of mine who lives around here is due with her second soon and she has also chosen to deliver at a Baby Friendly hospital so I'll hear all about her experience soon! :)
So, that's our news! It's been a crazy few months for us, to say the least! But, what else would anyone expect from the Jenkins family, right?! haha But, we're extremely happy to be settled in a great house with plenty of room (and central AC!). :)
Anyway, y'all have a great week coming up! Talk soon,
Chrissi :)
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
just an old vagabond these days....
Well, we're still (im)patiently waiting to move into our house. I talked to the housing office yesterday morning and our leasing agent told me that the house was going into turnover maintenance yesterday. So, we're supposed to get an official move-in date today. I'm thinking it will be within the week. If not, I may lose my mind. :) But, I will say, the temporary lodging facility that we're in is very nice. It's a two bedroom apartment that's fully furnished and has a full kitchen. So, life isn't too bad.
I drove by our house last week and I love it and our neighborhood! We're actually right off base in the largest base housing neighborhood. It has playgrounds on just about every corner, a community pool, and large open space for picnics and festivals. There's also a great farmers' market every Thursday this summer and fall in one of those big open spaces. It's going to be great. I just can't wait!
I'm working on finding a new babysitter for Max. One thing I'm going to check out this Friday is a fellow military wife who is a licensed and insured in-home childcare provider sponsored by the base. She has to have her house inspected once a month and serve certain kinds of foods. It's also limited to six children at a time. She lives in the neighborhood we're moving into. I'm on the fence about this but I'm going to go check it out and meet her to see what it's all about. It would just be for random appointments that I have when I can't take Max and Christian isn't home. But, I still need to find another babysitter for date-nights and stuff like that. So, I'm on the search.
Also, we're planning on starting Max in pre-school this fall for two mornings a week. I toured the school earlier this year and it's great. I know Max would love it and I think he'd learn a lot. It's called The Goddard School. They're nationally recognized and very structured. So, I just have to figure out the best time for him to start. We're planning on going to Europe again this fall so I may just wait until after we get back since we'll most likely be gone for a couple of weeks.
Well, that's about all I have for now. I'll post again once we get in our house and include some pics!
xoxo,
Chrissi
I drove by our house last week and I love it and our neighborhood! We're actually right off base in the largest base housing neighborhood. It has playgrounds on just about every corner, a community pool, and large open space for picnics and festivals. There's also a great farmers' market every Thursday this summer and fall in one of those big open spaces. It's going to be great. I just can't wait!
I'm working on finding a new babysitter for Max. One thing I'm going to check out this Friday is a fellow military wife who is a licensed and insured in-home childcare provider sponsored by the base. She has to have her house inspected once a month and serve certain kinds of foods. It's also limited to six children at a time. She lives in the neighborhood we're moving into. I'm on the fence about this but I'm going to go check it out and meet her to see what it's all about. It would just be for random appointments that I have when I can't take Max and Christian isn't home. But, I still need to find another babysitter for date-nights and stuff like that. So, I'm on the search.
Also, we're planning on starting Max in pre-school this fall for two mornings a week. I toured the school earlier this year and it's great. I know Max would love it and I think he'd learn a lot. It's called The Goddard School. They're nationally recognized and very structured. So, I just have to figure out the best time for him to start. We're planning on going to Europe again this fall so I may just wait until after we get back since we'll most likely be gone for a couple of weeks.
Well, that's about all I have for now. I'll post again once we get in our house and include some pics!
xoxo,
Chrissi
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